30 More Minutes

can it be one step at a time?  since I'm not eating, can I also not sleep once every blue moon?
 or fine every time I'm with a friend? I don't go out that much, I don't party, so when a friend comes over, I really appreciate it if I'm not judged if I stay up late.


 I promise to sleep a bit earlier next year. because my teen years wasn't really what we call fun teen years .. I did nothing really ... nothing to brag or even share with friends ... don't get me wrong, I love my family, but when I'm with friends I can't fully enjoy the night cause I'm worrying of what they'll think the next hour I take.

I'm not saying they're strict to the point they don't allow us to go out and enjoy life, but it's like this, you're on  a NO RICE diet, and they let you have rice, but just a spoon full. so what do you taste? a bit of heaven but taken away in a blink of an eye.they let us go out and have fun but not that long I guess. all we asked ws just 30 more minutes, oh well. that's life as a kid.  maybe I'm ranting, maybe I'm not, all I know is I can't have fun unless it's out of town.  but what can I do? I just breathe and say "yes" and listen, cause that's what kids do, listen and obey, cause I Love them so much. <3