ALL GROWN UP

I just watched Grown-ups tonight @ Sm Marikina with my family. This movie's great for people who have been there already. For those fresh graduates , you still can't relate cause you're still there, Starting your life , experiencing the things now.. "in life, the first act is always fun, but the second act, that's where the depth comes in.." that's a line one of the characters in the movie said.. And it's true. :) My dad enjoyed the movie. He laughed so hard and I can tell that it reminded him of so many memories he had of the past. His past. It's also important that you learn how to win, and how it feels to lose. That's gow life is, you need to accept that and move on with life. You shouldn't hold it against you. Live life with love and happiness in you. :) always move forward. There's no other way to do it. Also, it's always nice to have your family have your back. Enjoy life with them and take no regret with you. Friends, will always be there for you. Good ... Great friends will never hurt you. I hope when I grow old, my friends and I will be the same. :) just that. FRIENDS.

Just New

I just uploaded this new application in my Iphone for me to be able to update my blogs. :) Good job for those who created this!! Now I don't have to be using a laptop whenever I want to say something.. :)) anyway, hopefully with this I'll be able to update you with what I'm experiencing and doing or what i'm NOT doing :)) so my dear bloggers... Here's to a new start... With me new app! Lol :)) PEACE!!

Tink is Pink

You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting. -tinkerbell

And in the end Peterpan Stole Tinkerbells wings so she'd never leave him.


Peter Banning: [sees Tinkerbell on the Peter Pan statue] Tink! Tinkerbell: Say it, Peter. Say it and mean it. Peter Banning: I believe in fairies. Tinkerbell: You know that place between sleep and awake? That place where you still remember dreaming? [Peter nods] Tinkerbell: Thats where Ill always love you... Peter Pan. Thats where Ill be waiting.

Ray and Eddie

In this world , there are two types of men. There is Ray Where he gives you this satisfaction of having someone just appreciate you and notices you. He feeds you all this romantic crap and when the fact of the matter is when you think he's making you look good, the truth is.. He's the one looking good because he can show emotion and passion in all honesty. 

This guy is the type of guy where most women find comfort in. He distracts you from the real thing by sugar coating the whole idea of just being together, just the thrill of having someone there for you. I LOVE YOU. they use this or they say this very well. they make you all warm and happy inside. I cannot hide the truth, they do, they make you feel good and gay and LOVED. 

That's what you think, He says to you he loves you and that anyone would be lucky to have you, Because you're this AMAZING person who people can fall easily in love with. He creates this world with you where you, yourself will be afraid to move or get out of. You have built your own comfort zone with him. you always fall back on him. Either way, you stay...  you settle, because you are afraid if you don't , nothing will for you. or in this matter no one will. 

Ah, We still have Eddie on the other hand. Eddie is every other jerk or playboy you have. He is the most disgusting excuse for a man. He dates women like he changes his clothes. One thing he doesn't like about a girl he goes on with the next one. Hooks up with any girl /woman he can get. oh. and believe me he can get it. that's the way he plays the game in his mind. He can't decide what he wants and needs in life. he weighs all things. 

You know nothing really about this guy... you only know the outside he shows you. Now, there is this little as little as a mouse of possibility that he feels comfortable to share how he really feels but don't let that fool you, in a matter of seconds,,, he'll snap right back to his usual jack ass self. just a sneak peek of that shit from his fellows and he's dead meat. He'll treat you like you were just a dead fish in the sea just floating on the side to be thrown away. 


But you see, now I'm on a fix.. I don't know which is better?  Ray who gives you all the romantic crap but can't back it up? or Eddie, The guy who always back it up but doesn't really show the romantic crap or even care about that shit?  


I am in a quest to answer these questions. I'll be updating you with what I'll be experiencing. Personally, I have a Ray and Eddie in my Life... I hope you stay with me and find out who I choose. :) 


Until my next  entry . Teanisha out.

Who Really is the Guest?

Okay, so today Rona(Banana's Friend) goes to our house to hang with Banana, who's my sister by the way. I get this feeling everytime She's around. There was only one day/night where banana was okay with me. she wasn't a bad ass to me! but after that she's back to this being all snobby and arrogant and fucking rude to me! I really don't know what brings her to be like that! I'd hate to think that rona's a Bad influence but come on! every single time my sister becomes good you come along to ruin it. you do drugs and you drink all the time. you also smoke. I just really hope pray and wish that my sister's not doing the smoking and drugs shit. or else it's whole new diff. story here. Banana has the defensive and Possessive feeling with her friends. She doesn't like sharing her friends. Even with our cousin yzel she only gives me time with her if it's about nikki..hmm.. or maybe I'm the one who's possessive with my friends.. but actually no.. cuz I like her being friends with them.. I even encourage her to befriend them and be nice to them. It's just she always becomes a bitch whenever her friends are around. well she is one spoiled brat who gets what she wants but a BITCH is whenever she's around with her friends. La Salle may be good for her studies and shit and her party life and connections in life but she's not having herself change for the better. She keeps this act no one will want to be her real friend when she's down. she's very judgemental of people and even says "gago" to our mom. I don't know also when will she stop making gastos all my parents' money away..for shoes , dresses and things that are way to expensive for our lifestyle. I really wish she'd do this one thing for the family where she won't make any gastos for a year. taht would do a lot for the family. and I won't be a hypocrite , I won't make gastos sa food nadin. that'd probably help me with my figure. that's another thing I have to worry about now. but let's not get off topic , I got so pissed off by her kanina because I was asking her this one favor where all she has to do was to transfer songs to my ipod.. just like what she did to me a week ago.. oh but no.. all she can say is "gamit ko computer e" i mean what the fuck??? how come you can crash in me whenever you NEED it??? I just did what you did to me and now all of a sudden you do the right thing? I mean come on?? are you for real?? You know what? I still have to put my guards up with her. I can honestly say that I can not trust Anyone right now.. it's hard. No one. I'm just full of hate for my sister right now. maybe in the morning not anymore but I am still building my wall between us. she thinks she's always right and she's always clean but NO. YOU are NOT. fuck you! you can't be that perfect dear sister! God did not create us that way. Someday, I dream someday I get over you. lalagpasan kita! I PROMISE MYSELF THAT! 

My First

Oh Shit! they saved my blog! my very first Blog here! good job blogspot. you truly are amazing. you made my day! hmmmm ... shit! this really amazes me!!

This is my very first blog. I had a lot to blog about awhile ago. I am not going to share this with my friends and family because this will be my web diaries. I cannot contain one notebook to write fucking things about. That's because I keep on buying a new one each time I start with the first one. So anyway I anted this because I keep on having this fucking life wherein I find others friends and family so fucking unfair. I am giving this a chance because I just want to release everything here. No friends and Family to be worried about! if they're gonna see this or not or i might offend some of my fucking friends. With this I can fucking care or not.. but mostly I don't care cause no one knows! I can speak the way I want to speak. Tagalog or english or taglish. I can be barok or I can mispell words here. This is nopt for others. this is for me. I want ME this time. This is my domaine! No one can make me feel bad here. here I have my friends. letters. numbers. keyboard in short. only they can understand and express the way I feel and what I am thinking.

My First (Okay, My second. Cuz the first was fucking deleted!!! )

okay so I was already typing my first blog ever. but!! there's this BIG BUT!! It got deleted cuz I accidentally pressed the fucking off button!! what the fuck??? so anyway, I was wiriting that this will be my first blog. That I'm giving this a try since I can not maintain one ntbk for me to write how I feel. I am not sharing this with my family and friends because I don't want to care about how they feel. this blog will become my web diaries, I can say what I want, I can feel what I REALLY feel, I can curse if I want to.,, I don't fucking CARE. I just feel that this world, life and universe is just unfair. Most of the time no one understands me. Well there are a few but I still have to care and be careful with my words. here I will be myself. I can be nasty and shit. My family can be a handful most of the time . What I like about this is I can release who I am here. and no one can care less. because no one nows about this. okay, my brother now knows about this.. hopefully he doesn't find me. He asked if this was an email but I told him the truth. Why Lie? yes. I have a blog. and I will have it for as long as I can. I am hoping my english, grammar and spelling gets better here even though it won't matter if I become better or not here because no one will ever know that I will be writing this shit. so,, to all who reads this but do not know me, I am ready to take this challenge ! Let's Begin!